Grumbling, grouchiness and more grumbling: These are the targets for today.
It’s a low bar.
Anyway, these are the targets. I need to stomp my feet at least twice and take care of a few other things whilst stomping my feet. I need to make sure to say something that expresses my grouchiness. I need to do a few things to ensure that the intent carries across. However, the issue that I have is that, whilst I am tired, I feel neither grumpy nor grouchy.
This is a problem as it makes the performance feel insincere. How am I meant to get the whole thing across with a certain sense of effectiveness if what I am doing does not feel as though it is truly the case? I don’t think that I can do that fake it til I make it malarkey, so I’m going to have to try and find a way to become grouchy. I can still grumble, but it lacks the stuff to make it proper grumbling, really. I don’t know what to do.
You see, part of the reason as to why is that whilst I am most certainly tired, I feel quite alright at the moment., I’m rather calm and relaxed. I’m, taking it easy and just being a bit lazy. I don’t really have much to worry about, or much to add pressure. There are some things I need to edit and work on but right now I’ve a fair bit of time to work with and as such that means I’m gliding through things at a decent pace, though to be honest I’ve spent the last hour doing nothing and it was alright; perhaps needed even. I don’t feel grouchy at all. I don’t feel a desire to be grouchy. I feel a desire to relax. I don’t want to walk around and grumble and stomp my feet and have people go “Wow, he’s really grouchy today”, but at the same time I kind of need to so as to get across a certain something of which I am yet to decide on, so there is the possibility that I’d be going in and having to wing the whole thing until I know what it is that I want to get across.
Maybe it would be my grouchiness.
I don’t know what to do. I could just go forward and carry on as I am right now and not show any grouchiness and not grumble, but then what would be the point in that? It’s not something that seems like a good idea to go forward with. Surely there is a time and place for that, but right now the time and place calls for the grumbling, the grouchiness, the stomping of the feet, the aimless, yet striking pointing and a slew of other things that get across something that I am not feeling able to get across right now.
All this calmness is not helping. It’s starting to make me feel grouchy.
The time it took to write five-hundred words: 07:20:12
Took my time a bit more than I had expected, but it’s fine.
I think I did alright up until the end where I seemed to have dropped the proverbial ball. Oh well.
Written at home.