Alright, it’s the morning and it is time to start doing the things that need to be done. This will be a time of production but I need to stay focused and on topic in order to get the things done. If I don’t then I might slip away and end up doing something else and following a different path and that is not something I want to do. I want to write about music and other things and not think about the things that don’t pertain to those things of which I want to concentrate my thoughts upon, so I need to stay focused, because if I don’t I’m going to be writing about other things and that is something that I don’t want to do; at least, not at the moment.
Of course the moment could change and I will end up following it as that is what I always do, and realistically that isn’t the worst thing in the world. It can lead to a few interesting things and of course being led to other things out there can be rewarding in its own way, but then that means I haven’t achieved as much as I had hoped I would achieve. Actually, maybe I still would achieve as much as I hoped, but not what I had hoped, which would still be fine, or maybe not. Not entirely sure on that one, but surely will find out at some point so long as I stick to whatever it is that I need to stick to, or something to similar effect.
I think this waffling is affecting my ability to be effective this morning as already I’m on the path of meandering and it does not seem to be slowing down which is something that provides its own sense of concern, but of course that does mean there is another path that I should probably look at following, assuming of course I am interested in attempting to follow said path, which of course I am as I do like to explore and adventure away from whatever it is that I am meant to be doing, which is good and bad in a way.
It’s good as it means I do more exploring… I think… but it’s bad as I lack the focus to focus on what I am meant to be doing… until I actually focus on what it is that I’m meant to be doing, which then leads to my having focus, but of course whether that matters or not is another story entirely.
Well, maybe it is not. I think it does matter and thus I should try and focus more, but there are so many things to see out there that I can’t help but check out as many of them as I possibly can, and… well, I don’t know where I was going with this. I can’t even remember how this all started. I think I was writing about doing things today, but then I left that and moved toward somewhere else and now I can’t help but continue on past what felt like a natural conclusion as there are so many other things that I want to express at the moment, but it would be much easier if my fingers weren’t as cold as they are right now, but that is what I currently have to deal with and deal with it I will as there is little else to deal with other than my need to go to the bathroom, but that soon will be dealt with.
After dealing with that I will eat my food I have for breakfast and then after that I will take care of other things. I guess getting this out of the way now rather than later is a small victory but there need to be more along the path of getting things done on this morning of mornings.
However, there need to be more victories along the way. There are things I need to complete. I need to water the plants. I need to live my life. I need to breathe in and out quite a few more times before the day’s end. That’s a lot of breathing to do, and I am up to the task. I am ready to breathe for the rest of the day. So long as I keep on breathing, then I can say that I have kept on breathing throughout the day and that is a good thing as air in lungs means air in lungs, among other things of course.
Perhaps I should have a second coffee. That might be a good idea, or a bad idea. Probably a bad idea. I think there are other things to worry about.
Need to get that food into my gullet and break it all down so it can be turned into a source of energy so as to be able to keep on powering this receptacle I refer to as a body so I can continue on with doing the things that I want to and need to do, but of course I need to stay warm and functioning in other ways so I can keep on doing the things I want to do, but I honestly think that so much of this would be much easier if there was a bit more sunlight pouring out from the sky today.
The weather is a bit overcast which is rather unfortunate. I hope it clears up a little so clothes dry a bit faster. I also hope to think to put on a jacket so I warm up a bit faster than relying on this shirt and my gloves and the pants and the socks and the beanie allows.
I would probably be in a better position to not be so sluggish and distracted if I was a little warmer, but maybe not. Maybe it wouldn’t. However, I am certainly aware that I’d be typing faster if my fingers weren’t cold.
The time it took to write one thousand words: 12:09:26
Surprised by how quickly this came out as I am typing rather slowly, I think.
A writing that wanders a bit more than I hoped, so I guess it demonstrates what I was trying to avoid.
Written at home.