I think that my fatigue is catching up to me.
It’s been a long few weeks that at the same time have gone by in an instant. The nearing of the end of the university studies (for now, at least) is fast approaching and there still is a lot that I need to do in order to make sure that all is done, lest I hand everything in late. That is not something that I want to do, let me tell you. I’d much rather not hand things in late at this juncture. Need to make sure that I get the best marks that I can possibly get.
I need to listen to some sort of conclusive music, to help the finishing feel so much more of an end. I’d much rather not feel like it is not, or something like that. Don’t know, really.
Do I go to the ceremony after? Maybe. Maybe not. Maybe I just stay at home on the day and leave it at that, or something. Don’t know. Don’t care to know right now. Other things to worry about, such as passing and making sure that I don’t have to return for another trimester (or semester, or whatever it is if I do indeed need to return) for this undergraduate degree that I’ve slowly been chipping away at for far too long, although likely there are others who chip away at it for a longer period of time than I. I do have to consider myself lucky in that regard, I guess.
So, near the end, soon be done and then can get back to getting a lot of other things I’d rather be doing done. It’;s a long, slow crawl and I’m looking forward to standing up once more. It’ll be a glorious day, I think. Well, that’s what I believe and that is what I hope. If not, well, it’ll just be business as usual. Nothing wrong with that, really. Just need to make sure that the business as usual is actually still productive rather than reductive. Surely that is a most difficult task, but I’m sure I’ll find a way to cope, if indeed I need to work out how to cope with it at all. The chances are that I’ll not have to worry too much about anything.
Not sure if I’m looking forward to university ending. Maybe I’ll return sooner than I think I’ll return. Don’t really know. Maybe the feeling will kick in after it all wraps up. Maybe it won’t. I really don’t know at this point.
I think that perhaps I’m thinking about it a little too much, and I’m guessing that that ‘perhaps’ is actually ‘actually’.
Well, I guess I should get back to digging through a few things and keeping on top of them. It’s probably going to be a long day today, but maybe it won’t. I don’t know yet and don’t care too much to know. There are other things to worry about.
The time it took to write five-hundred words: 06:07:32
Not sure where this lies when it comes to quality.
May have been better had I been doing more writing as of late.
Written at work.