So today I’ve been sitting here for a good while writing as there are things that I need to write about.
I’m meant to be seeing my partner and be hanging with her family, but I’ve had to cancel. She’s okay with it as I’ll be seeing her tomorrow.
I don’t need to write about the year that is about to end, but there’s a few traditions that I do like to uphold.
I’ve done a lot of thinking and reflecting this year. There’s been a lot of trying to take stock of where I am in life and whether I’ve accomplished anything meaningful.
It’s a silly thing to think. I imagine that in ten years’ time I’ll be ruminating about the same issue.
I’ve been trying to work out as to where I’ve come from and where I’m going. I’ve been trying to work out as to whether I need to be doing more or less.
At the very end of last year I released an album and in November of this year I wrote a manuscript. These are both accomplishments but, whilst they are important to me I don’t feel as though they are meaningful.
It’s a silly thing to think.
I think that I have a desire to do more and more as I get older. I find that I like to be busy. Rather make the most of my time.
It’s probably why I’ve continued with photography and remained in university. It’s probably part of the reason as to why I still write and put so much of it out into the Internet. It’s probably part of the reason as to why I still work on music.
I’d say that, aside from university which is more of a war of attrition that I don’t want to back down from as I know that at the end I’ll get something more than just a lot of frustration from it, it’s more likely that I do these things due to my enjoyment of them (music is more than just enjoyment but that’s a rabbit hole that no-one needs to go down) and the being busy is just a pleasant side-effect.
2017 has felt like a very long year to me. I know that it’s probably due to having done a lot more than usual and in that regard I think I am satisfied.
I managed to not fail any of my university subjects and worked on more music. As said before, I wrote a manuscript.
I took a lot of photos, kept working, went camping with a friend, did a fair bit of swimming and got to participate in turtle research.
I’d say that that is all stuff of which I can be satisfied.
I don’t know what else to say. Ultimately how I feel may pass. Maybe it will not. Either way, I still feel restless and do not want to sit comfortably with what I have achieved.
I imagine that 2018 will also be a busy year so long as I keep myself going forward.
2018? Bring it on.