Tomorrow is a very big day for me, for two equally important reasons.
The first is that it is my seven-and-one-half years anniversary with the company I work for.
It’s a pretty big thing for me as I never planned to stay as long as I did and should have left a long time ago.
I’ve worked on two different projects with them and whilst the first one was only about seven months, it was still the better one, at a better office, where treatment was much better.
Anyway, the second reason is that it is my last day working as the project is ending and, as the company has so far been unsuccessful in obtaining other clients, everyone is being made redundant.
I have mixed feelings about this.
I’m happy that it’s happening as it means I can start studying full-time sooner rather than later.
As I have a bit of free time on my hands, I’m also taking on a subject on molecules, cells and genes during the summer semester to help me complete my bachelor of science faster.
I’m also able to look for a job that will be more suitable for me.
Whilst my redundancy package isn’t going to be massive, it’s still money that will help me out.
All of that is good for me.
However, I find myself feeling afraid as well.
I’ve been working for eleven years now.
I do have strong experience behind me and some work discipline when it’s required, but I don’t know how soon it will be until I have another job.
I’ve been told that I won’t have a problem with getting another one, but what if I don’t get one quickly enough?
Part of my livelihood is working and whilst I have worked for a company that I don’t have many positive things to say due to how they operate and, whilst taught me a lot of things, also left me feeling pretty exhausted most of the time, I still have a strong desire to have a job.
Obviously I can spend more time working on other things that interest me now, but still, it is a bit scary.
I don’t want to find myself in a position where I am unable to get something for a long time as Sydney isn’t anywhere near as cheap as it should be and I’m not currently in a position to move to Melbourne to be with my family there.
With that being said, I’m not going to let the fear stop me from trying to get work.
I also won’t let it stop me from trying to have fun as I’m definitely going to try and make the most of whatever free time I have as well.
It does mean I’ll be able to do a lot more swimming, so I’m pretty happy with that.
I’m wondering as to how tomorrow will pan out.
I’m sure it will turn out okay.
Well, I hope it will turn out okay.
The time it took to write five-hundred words: 14:01:67
Slower than I thought it would be, but still decent as I was thinking a fair bit about how to convey what I’m feeling about tomorrow.
Apparently the best way was poorly.
Written at my desk at home.