So I’m sitting here and trying to think about how I can fill the space of which I have set out before me.
I’m thinking about what I’ve been doing with my life and the launch of the new thing that is taking Cool Try’s place. I’m thinking about my studies and how I need to finish off a large number of reviews. I’m thinking about thinking.
I’m at work and I just don’t want to be here today. There are other places where I’d rather be. Oh well. It cannot be helped at this moment. Money is needed to survive, which is a weird concept.
I want to be able to relax.
Well, I guess I can relax a bit later.
I think I’ve run out of juice for the time being. Maybe the quitting of the caffeine was not a good idea. Oh well. I broke that just before. There’s now turning back, but there is always beginning again.
Beginning once more, at the beginning of it all.
I was hoping to write something a bit more serious this morning, but I don’t think that my mind is willing to allow such a thing to happen. This may end up being rather dull, so I’m sorry if this post turns out to be. Still, it is an exercise and getting this out now will be a lot better than getting it out later as it means that I’ll be able to get something of above average quality out sooner.
Well, that is what I want to tell myself.
The weather outside is not the most pleasant, but that’s okay as it is still weather of a relaxing variety, as it were.
What am, I doing with my life?
I’m sitting in an office that I don’t enjoy being in anymore.
Actually, that is a half-truth. I still enjoy being here as the environment is surprisingly healthy. I just don’t enjoy the job anymore.
Still, it is debatable as to how much I enjoyed the job at any given time.
I need to get back to where I want to be. I need to get back to creating things.
I need to go make some more music. I need to write more reviews.
I need to do more photography.
I need to do something that is a fulfilling use of my time and this job just isn’t that anymore.
I need to think about what I am doing. I need to think about it quite a lot. I need to keep on moving forward to something that I want to do with my time.
Actually, that is what I’m doing at the moment, in a way.
Soon I shall once more play a gig and now I get to have more of a part on a site that allows me to put more of my unqualified views out there. Soon that will launch and I hope ot does well.
There will be more photography to do. There is always more photography to do and I think I’ve gotten a bit lazy, so I need to get back into the swing of things once more.
I need to do some editing this morning and afternoon.
I just kind of want to get away for a bit. I need to knuckle down and work hard, but I also need to do things that allow me to get away.
I need to stop rambling and find something that is a little more concise as this has al[ready gone on for far too long.
Sorry about the rambling.