What a week. What an improvement in environment.
Right now I don’t have the time to type out everything that has happened, but all I’ll say is that what is expected – a movement into a more positive and healthy environment – does wonders. Unsurprising, really.
There was a lot of darkness in my previous job. A lot of heaviness, and a lot of lack of accountability from management, and in a new environment things are already better. I feel healthier, both mentally and physically. I feel as though a heavy weight has lifted ever-so-slightly. I want to do the work that I have, and I think that that’s an awesome thing. Don’t know if it is, but I think its awesome.
So it has been a busy week and I’ve taken it easy. Broke my posting streak, though perhaps that’s a good thing. It’s good to relax and not worry about those things sometimes, I think. Better things out there to worry about and all that stuff. Now I’m here, at home, relaxing. Taking it easy. Trying to scramble to get a bunch of things done before I hit the hay and move into the land of sleep, resting my eyes and getting into a state of nice and heavy rest. It will be where I spend the time resting, and resting is what I want to do. I need it, for it has been a busy and productive time, and rest is good and all that stuff.
So, beyond that, what else can I say? I’m sitting here and relaxing despite being busy, and I look forward to switching off for the night, I look forward to finding more rest and getting into a state of great rest, and I’m looking forward to waking up in the morning, hopefully rested, and hopefully rested well. Yet to see, of course, but you never know, except for when you do, but I don’t know what I am saying at this point.
I like this new space and I like the people I work with, not that I didn’t like the people I worked with before. Just, there’s less pressure and toxicity interspersed among the people I am now around, and I don’t have managers not accepting accountability and breaching out employment codes. Of course it is early days, but I have a good feeling about it all, and I think that’s nice. It’s nice to feel good about something. It’s nice to feel a sense of ease and feel like you’ve more energy to do the thing you’re employed to do.
It’s nice to be in an environment where management doesn’t imply in writing that you’re a liar when you have irrefutable evidence that you didn’t lie about something.
Anyway, it’s nice to breathe. It’s nice to be walking more and it’s nice to not be working from home at the moment. Sure, I have less time to do things, but I’m getting much more done, and I like that I am.
The time it took to write five-hundred words: 07:47:22
Slow, but I’m not fussed. Could be slower.
More concerned about how little I said. I’m fairly certain I could’ve said more.
Alas.
Written at home.